There are some kinds of news that you wish you could just whisper. It might be the most exciting thing in the whole world, maybe a huge personal achievement. But that’s it: when it’s personal, 500 words just don’t seem adequate. I wish I could just whisper to you, “Hey, wanna see this thing I did?” And then I would like to hover over your shoulder creepily and watch your reaction to see what makes sense to you and what doesn’t, what you like and what you don’t. But hitting the publish button, releasing this beast to the world, sitting back, and just waiting? Ugh…radio silence. It’s terrifying.
I have been quietly scheming, designing, writing, and photographing for the last couple months. I’ve enlisted a small group of people to help with various things and I’ve slowly introduced this small corner of the internet to friends and family. Everyone has been extremely gracious and kind and encouraging and wonderful.
But they know me, they like me and they want me to succeed. They aren’t the vile gremlins who happen to all share the name “anonymous” and troll the internet, probably together, looking to squash hopes and dreams via the comment section. I’ve watched the brave artists and writers ahead of me post beautiful words and photos and get ripped to shreds.
People often say that it’s like releasing your baby into the world to be judged. But it’s so much worse. You can’t pick what your baby looks like. I picked exactly what this looks like.
I’ve joined forums to learn from other photographers and taken writing classes to improve. My biggest fear is just adding to the noise that already is the creative boom on the internet. I’ve fought with the idea of having my own space to put my work for so long. It feels self-involved, self-congratulating and self-promoting. Me, me, me. But I keep coming back to the same thing…all of my reasons not to do this have to do with what other people think. And Pinterest quotes tell me this is a terrible way to live.
I’m a firm believer that vulnerability breeds vulnerability. But not only do I feel like I need to be open in order to gain other people’s trust, but I also think that exposing my own work will make me appreciate the courage it takes for other people to display theirs. Simply put: I want to be nicer, less judgmental. In a twisted way, I think that doing this will help me in that.
Like the coward I am, I’m leaving the country for 10 days…today. That’s best business practice, right? Launching and then disappearing? I thought so too.
So read this post, click around and stay awhile. Get to know all about Green Chair Stories, including where the name comes from. Thank you in advance for taking the time to explore.